you.

how is it that you are both the air I breathe and the very reason I’m dying?

you fill me completely only to leave me laying here empty, gasping for breath.

one moment you build me up making me believe that anything is possible

and in the next you drop me shattering all of my hopes and dreams

professions of love and empty promises stream from your lips

your abusive words in my head like shards of broken glass penetrating my soul

i hate you.

i love you.

i hate that I need you more than air.

over and over you betray me

yet even still, I forever naïve come running back to your embrace

those strong arms of false security that hold me captive

your manipulative voice and deceptive lips

all these that I love far too much.

even the cruel words that murder my soul a little more each time you speak

at the start you swore you would never hurt me.

but too late I see it was all a lie.

did you ever love me? are you even capable of feelings?

your eyes so dark and empty, your heart cold as stone

but still I stay, forever by your side

you are my addiction, my drug of choice

and I will never let you go